Becoming HER

"When I started showing up as the woman, I wanted to be the world began responding to me; showing me all the different ways I needed to keep moving, and healing, and growing and stretching beyond myself, beyond anything I had ever reached before. When I started showing up as the woman I wanted to be, the world led me to a place where I could finally say, 'I am her' "

This is my current project. I feel like I am in the reconstruction phase of a total life adjustment. I want to make this a self-prioritization chapter. Opting for growth over comfort has propelled me into a realm where I am constantly reevaluating my desires and requirements. And I had to understand that growth doesn't always look the way I want it to.

I came to understand that rather than obsessing over perfection and striving for flawlessness, simply taking the first step was sufficient. My fixation on perfectionism hindered me significantly, as I was preoccupied with external perceptions and potential judgments, preventing me from pursuing my passions. That's when I realized, I had to find out who I was to get to her.

I was struggling to make a change because my old behavior was meeting a need for me. But now, I'm going through a period of self-accountability. A heightened key of self-awareness. One day I look in the mirror and truly noticed myself. I was looking at my physical features while also examining by inner workings and circuits. It was strange fruit to me. I had outgrown myself, friend. It was a blank sheet of paper to the canvas, pencil nearby. But what to write, what to draw? Old habits were just on the page before, I could still feel the grooves of their affect, the past. But i had to remember 'Be where your feet are.'

Thus started my manifestation journey. 'When you detach from everything, you gain everything. When you don't need anything, you gain everything. The best things in life come to you when you aren't searching for them.' I found solace in meditation. Chanting. Mantras.

I wanted to be someone of inner peace. I want to be a woman who doesn't mind taking up space in the world. The freedom to just, be. I'm starting to highlight how my life feels rather than how it looks. This is a very hard concept for me sometimes being someone that's hyper independent. It's not something that comes naturally, for me. Its ok to need others. I am in the process of reframing situations without analyzing them as if they were mathematical equations.

Be who you want to become. I was watching a special on TV, and it encouraged self-image and always looking your best even when you don't feel like it. 'Take pride in your appearance, you never know who you will meet.' Visualizing your higher self is a powerful practice that involves tapping into your inner wisdom and potential. By envisioning yourself as your higher self, you are aligning with your true essence and embodying the qualities that reflect your best self. This practice can help you set intentions, clarify your goals, and manifest your desires. I am you are stepping into a state of confidence, authenticity, and empowerment. I are embracing my strengths, values, and purpose, and expressing them in my thoughts, words, and actions. This alignment allows me to navigate challenges with grace, make decisions from a place of clarity, and attract positive experiences into my life.

Through introspection and self-discovery, I have reached a profound realization that the woman I have been seeking resides within me. I have come to understand that I am my own greatest ally, always there to support, listen, and provide solace to myself. This journey of self-awareness has been revolutionary, leading me to embrace my inner strength and wisdom. Instead of searching externally for validation or guidance, I have learned to trust my own intuition and instincts, paving the way for personal growth and empowerment. I had to follow to own lead and trust my steps. I was not lost, I was stuck

It was during these times of being "stuck" that I was able to reflect, reassess, and realign my priorities. Sometimes the mud was a blessing because this period of introspection allowed me to tap into my inner resources and unlock the potential that was always within me.

By acknowledging and embracing the woman I am becoming, I have discovered a newfound sense of confidence and resilience. I have learned to celebrate my strengths, accept my vulnerabilities, and strive for personal growth with a sense of purpose and determination. This journey of self-empowerment has shown me that the key to fulfillment lies in recognizing and nurturing the incredible woman that resides within me.

There are places that you haven't been, that you already belong. Everything, in time.